I’m thinking of ending things. Once this thought arrives, it stays. It sticks. It lingers. It’s always there. Always.
Jake once said, “Sometimes a thought is closer to truth, to reality, than an action. You can say anything, you can do anything, but you can’t fake a thought.”
And here’s what I’m thinking: I don’t want to be here.
In this deeply suspenseful and irresistibly unnerving debut novel, a man and his girlfriend are on their way to a secluded farm. When the two take an unexpected detour, she is left stranded in a deserted high school, wondering if there is any escape at all. What follows is a twisted unraveling that will haunt you long after the last page is turned.
I got this novel from NYCC 2018.
I have been going back and forth on how to rate this novel. The beginning was a bit tedious, although it did have some interesting philosophical discussions.
The middle was really creepy, cryptic, and suspenseful. A real page turner. The part at the farm house was my favorite.
Then it just gets really weird, and there were some head-scratching decisions being made. Things you are not supposed to do in a horror story.
Then the end rambled on incoherently. (I explain why in spoiler tags on my Goodreads review.) There are 2 pages that repeat the same phrase over and over. I read in some reviews that this novel was made for audiobook format and that phrase repeated over two pages was brilliant because of the different ways it is dramatized. I love audiobooks, so maybe at some point I’ll check it out.
At first when I finished I gave it a 2 out of 5 rating because I was so confused. I was annoyed at feeling like, “WTF was that?”
But then I stopped and thought about all the details I remembered that connected everything. I went back to read it again, confirming all the clues I conected. Then it all made sense, and I got to say this novel is really clever.
I am going to settle on 3.5 out of 5 Dairy Queens.
Page 72: Even considering the data that shows the majority of marriages don’t last, people still think marriage is the normal human state. Most people want to get married. Is there anything else that people do in such huge numbers, with such a terrible success rate?
Page 89: You can’t start second-guessing after the fact. We can’t let the actions of one man make us feel guilty. This isn’t about us. We’re the normal ones. It’s only about him.